Chrissy and I were about to celebrate our second anniversary when she surprised me with the news, “You are going to be a daddy!” I was so happy and proud. “Are you nervous, scared?” she asked. The truth is, I was comfortable because my employer paid well enough that my wife didn’t have to work, and we had terrific benefits. Financially speaking, we had an ideal situation. At that time, I truly believed I was a good husband and (soon-to-be) father because I was paying all the bills.
Unexpectedly, my employer laid me off a few months before I could go on paternity leave. What followed was one of the most challenging conversations I have ever had in my life. “Babe, uhh, there is no easy way for me to say this.” Worried, she replied, “What is it? What’s wrong?” I told her I was unemployed and explained what that meant for our immediate future, financial and health benefits. I cannot describe the pain of seeing my wife cry at that moment, and I felt nervous and scared for the first time.
My wife and I managed to keep our faith and trust in God. Doing so gave me time for self-exploration and to listen to what God wanted me to learn from this experience. My amazing wife was incredibly supportive as God worked on my mindset, removed my pride, and rebuilt me. During this season of my life, I realized that relying solely on what I thought was a “stable” career to provide for my family was no longer ideal.